This post was "Fake It Till you Make It" in my head for the past couple of weeks but then I saw this saying on Facebook just before I went to bed last night and I thought
"That is definitely more me"
My life has had a lot of Face It Till you Make It over the past few years, primarily in my professional life.
On November 8, 2013 the corporation that I worked for did what I now call the "Big Purge" They removed over 600 people from their full time jobs in one day, including that of an amazing women who I worked with, Kathy. I so wanted to leave with her that day but I was not at all in a financial position to do so. I just knew then that I would work hard and the day would come that I would get my chance to change my situation but until then, I would work hard and CHOOSE my attitude.
My day came 3 weeks ago!! In July, I applied for a job in Student Services at a Technical College in our town. Just the change in drive time was going to have such an impact on my day from 26 minutes to 6!! The opportunity to work as part of a team of professionals again was more than I dared to dream about!! I got an interview and channeled my inner Badass--- https://jensincero.com/ -- I envisioned my new tea cup on my desk. I concentrated on what it would be like to work WITH students instead of watching them shop. I envisioned walking into my new boss' office to ask her a question instead of "logging a call" and waiting for days for an answer.
...I just DECIDED that I was getting that job.
I KNEW what my daily life would be like and
I HELD on until it became my new reality!!!!!!
Oh yes! You better believe it!! I got that job!!
I started this week and it feels like a lifetime ago that I worked at my old job.
I miss the people there but I feel such a sense of relief to be free from that company.
The POS system at my old job required temp and weather to activate a new day.
Everyday since the Big Purge,
I put Zero for the temperature and Cloudy for the weather condition.
On my last day, I was literally SHAKING when I clicked 85 and Sunny!!!!
At the end of August we lost a dear dear friend. Mike was our friend, drinking buddy, my husband's hunting and fishing buddy, supporter of all DIY projects, advice giver, amazing father, great husband to an equally amazing women, teacher, and so much more. The day we learned that Mike had left us was Move-In day for new students at the school I worked at.
Somehow, I did my job that day. I talked to people. Ran the register. Kept the store supplied and clean. I even balanced the register at the end of the day.
When it was time to go home, I had no idea where I had parked because the lot I usually park in was blocked off that morning and I was in shock. Eventually I found my car. Got myself home and was able to begin my grieving. Only a few people knew what was going on that day and that's the point.
You really DON'T KNOW what is going on in the lives of people who you know.
You really DON'T KNOW what is going on in the lives of people who you just encounter during the day.
Wasn't there a Seinfeld episode about the person who always answered
"How are you today?"
With a string of ailments and complaints???
That cashier at the gas station very likely has to go to the bathroom but they have to stand there and watch your kid pick out the flavor of gum they want.
Your co-worker may have just met the person of their dreams but you didnt ask them about their weekend.
The car riding your bumper on Hwy 65 at 7:38 am may have worked all night and is now late to take a final.
So...........Just remember as you go about your day and encounter other people.
You have NO IDEA what they are
Facing or Faking or Making.
My farm is my favorite place to be. Cant wait to share what's happening here.